Today has been an interesting day in the development of this book. I am full of doubt. I feel like there is no interest, and like I have no support, for something that I worked so incredibly hard on. I feel like I wasted a year of my life, and like I should just burn the project.
But, I was looking at the photos and videos today. I remember the faces, the landscapes, I remember how far it was from everything here. I had forgotten how noisy it could be. I had forgotten how the rawness in Cape Town made me feel soft and fuzzy in comparison - the opposite to how I feel here.
That, and I will never forget that these stories need to be told. It hurts me to think that I would have failed in telling the stories that I promised to share.
It's bleak outside - cold and frozen and bits of ice falling from the hard, gray sky.
I guess the bottom line is, if you want to read Ekhaya, now's the time to let me know.
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I'd said I want to read it but I think that's an obvious statement or redundent or something.. but I also would like to share that I'm super jealous of the courage you have to try, and would also like to point out that your favorite book was probably rejected about 10-15 times before it found a place that believed in it. And on top of it, you had an article in a magazine about part of this piece so there is definitely some interest.
ReplyDeleteDon't stop. no matter what, just don't stop. i am insanely jealous of you actually finding a part of your soul to push yourself to create something you want created. it is beautiful, it is inspiring, and like you said. some stories just need to get told.
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